This is for a "spender" that I see writing reviews of a performer that has left suddenly and I feel badly for this spender:
It was incredible when you first met the performer here.
He was brand new, beautiful, a little rough and clumsy on performance, yet exhilarating to your senses.
Tentatively, you visited his chatroom at first. Explored his responses. Gauged his likes and dislikes.
Then you showered him with the presents.
Few at first.
Then as he acknowledged your presence and he gave favor to your position in his chatroom, the presents rained more and more upon him.
He gave you a "name" other than his screen name. You felt special and exalted.
When the chatroom filled up as the performer honed his talent and his performance started to zenith, he would start to pick you out in the crowd of screaming "spenders".
You wrote him wonderful reviews.
You rained tips and endless private sessions.
He called you by your "real name" that you divulged to him.
And he would give you first priority on private time.
You held in contempt those that would have him in exclusive private and wait fuming in the general chat when he was away from you.
So you showered him with incredible sums of credits.
Sometimes pushing your "CC" to the limits.
He somewhat promised meeting you when "all this is done". You thought in your head that somehow there would be a meeting and a fulfillment of the relationship.
You then tolerated his "exclusive privates". You rationalized that he is making money for the two of you.
You still waited outside in general chat and said "good night baby" when he finished with his newly found spender.
You helped him with his contests.
You became like his moderator.
You made more plans with him, he created a future for you.
One day/night he said, I'll see you tomorrow baby.
Then he was gone.
And the ensuing days, he never returned.
You maybe tried to write him here. Frantically called his flirtphone. Searched social media for his "given name".
He hasn't returned. He hasn't returned. Despite the hours and credits, he is gone. BUT, you were his number one fan. YOU were supposedly "his everything".
Please realize, the 2nd name gave you is not his real name. Not even close.
When he is hungry again, if his job doesn't work out, if his real relationship doesn't transpire, he will return.
This also happened to me a long time ago. You have to be here only for fun. You have to be on the outside for relationships.
Here the "relationship" starts in the middle. Naked and exposed as it is, this site is for fun only.
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